Posted by: myroadtoemmaus | November 4, 2010

in his hands

Yesterday morning, a nurse named Scotti came into the room to introduce herself as Hannah’s nurse for the day.  She wrote her name on the dry erase board along with the Care Assistant’s name and the nursing student.  Then, for the first time since we’ve been here, she erased the “Goals for this Shift” that were written below her name, as they had been leftover from the previous patient’s stay.  She went on to write her goals for the day.

1.  Pain and Hunger Control

2.  GI Consult.  Eat??

3.  Poop!

I think it’s fair to say that if you don’t set goals, you will never meet them!  Yesterday was the first day where we saw real progress.  After not producing a dirty diaper since Sunday, Hannah produced 4!  In honor of one of my favorite friends, Yay for poop!! I also had a few meetings with the GI doctors, who are really great, and they decided to let her begin to eat again.  Pain and hunger control?  Didn’t seem like much of a problem.  Three goals listed.  Three goals met.

Today is Day 7 in the hospital.  Hannah had a great night, is re-learning how to nurse, slept very well, and even let her mommy sleep some.  Although, I wish the baby in the room next to us would have jumped on that train, too.

Another day calls for another set of goals.  Here they are:

1.  More dirty diapers!  She hasn’t had one since yesterday around 6pm but I am hopeful for a handful today!

2.  CF testing- minimal pain.  Supposedly the procedure isn’t too fun… and our little girl has certainly had her share of her procedures since being here.

3.  Comfortable nursing.  Let the reader understand.

4.  Peace.

Yesterday, though it was a day of progress, left me feeling nervous towards the end of the day.  After six days of Hannah being completely in the hospital’s hands, I felt like she was back in our hands, the hands that somehow, unintentionally, led her to the hospital in the first place.  I felt the anxiety of “What if it just happens again?  What if she starts to eat, gets clogged up, her tummy becomes distended again, and we wind up back here again without answers?”  Oh how easy it is to fall into that trap… to listen to the lies… to play the “what if” game.

Instead, I am asking for peace that surpasses understanding.  I am asking for faith that we can walk out of this hospital with a completely healed daughter.  Most of all, I am asking for greater revelation of whose hands our little girl is actually in.  Not the hospital’s.  Not ours.  But the Lord’s.  He created her.  He is sustaining her.  He is healing her.  And He has incredible purposes for her life.  And hopefully, with understanding of this, will come greater understanding that those same hands have been sustaining, healing, and holding me, too.

The following chorus was running through my mind as I drove back to our house yesterday to pick up some things in order to return to the hospital for the night.  I have been singing it over our little girl, too.

Matt Redman

He’s got the whole world in His hands

He’s got the whole world in His hands

I fear no evil for you are with me

Strong to deliver and mighty to save

He’s got the whole world in His hands



  1. Thanks so much for keeping us updated, Eliza Joy. We are praying for you ALL (and for the nursing!)

  2. Yes, praying for the peace that passes understanding! We love you guys!

  3. “Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen…” (Hebrews 11:1, KJV)
    –I love the power of prayer!! I believe Hannah’s ongoing recovery IS the evidence of things not seen. It’s all very awesome! 🙂

  4. I’m so thankful for these updates! And your little precious girl! Thank God that our children are in His hands. He created them. He will sustain them. We love you and will continue to pray! Thank God for those dirty diapers!

  5. EJ and Russell and precious Hannah, You are in our prayers and we are praying for a miracle to glorify our Lord. Our hearts have been heavy for all of you and we lift Hannah before the throne of God. Oh He is so worthy of all of our praise. For the peace that passes all understanding and for thanksgiving for His amazing grace.. We love you . In the mighty name of Jesus. Wanda and Kenny

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